Feel... emotionless.

I dont know if its for a reason or not but i cant stopthinking about my aunt kim. Its somthing that i dont think will ever make any sence. Death doesnt make sence no matter what anyone says it doesnt. How can someone... just stop living... how can they die and never come back. It doesnt seem possible. Its strange to be able to see that person in your mind.. to remember their voice and how they smelled.

I guess people might say your to young to understand. I know someone who has told me that many times. And yes maybe im young... but i will never understand it.

I also dont get how no matter what i write i just end up deleteing it or tearing it up because it doesnt really express how i feel.  The words arent the right ones and the way its written never sounds like it should. And then at night you can be thinking about somthing completly different and someone says one thing and you think of the person who is gone.  Am i just weak or somthing that i cant handle this.

I want someone to have the answers to the un known.

But that wont happen.........